Amal Alynna's Blog

#11 wordless wednesday

2012-02-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

late on my WW post . hehe :) playing with ze ipad . will update tomorrow :)

Paradise

2012-02-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

hi everyone out there who's till reading my old lame blog tonight and the day after tomorrow .
hahaha so i am really kinda bored right now because .... i don't know ???

okay whatever -.-
a lot of things are going on in my life right now such as i'm busy converting oxygen to carbon dioxide . yeahhh . i am . hahaha ;p no laa . i am preparing for my driving test which probably going to be in March . haha . awesome ~~~ so i just want to update a little bit in this blog of mine .

some of my friends has asked me why did i close my blog all of the sudden . it's because i was talking all kind of stuffs about them ! and i mean bad stuffs ! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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JUST KIDDING XD

i temporarily closed my blog because i was doing my editing that night and boy my blog look like a hurricane just crash in ! so that's why i decided to close it for awhile until i get everything fixed . notice the new header ???? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm -.-

hehehe :)

Oh YAAH !
CONGRATULATIONS TO ADELE BECAUSE SHE WON 6 GRAMMY AWARDS ! SHE DESERVES EVERY AWARD ~ LOVE YOU ADELE :)

so i guess that's it .

hehehe :) okay ! bye ~

P/s : i bought a domo kun doll :)) adorable

Change the world

2012-02-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

my head is really in pain right now . i should be going to bed now but i am actually in the mood to blog tonight ! hahahaha ;p what a day i'm having . my brother just came back from India ! yeay ! hahaha ;p one thing that he brought for entire house is 2 boxes of snickers . my goshhh , mmg bnyak . hahahaha

and today i don't really have the confidence to drive . i made a lot of mistakes during my driving class . what just happened to me ? hmm .

okay . i want to head off to bed early tonight .

oh ya ! i like the new twitter actually :)))

p/s : sorry my dear . i am to be blame .

#10 wordless wednesday

2012-02-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

p/s : and i hope you realized that every little things about us are important .

a letter from the heart

2012-02-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

no more tears shed , no more screaming in my room .

i just had enough . "never let anyone become a priority in your life when you are always an option in theirs ."

i got that quote from my senior's twitter , Kak Fera . and i absolutely agree with this statement . why should i put YOU as the highlight of my life when i am always YOUR LAST OPTION . huh . seriously , just by saying that YOUR name is enough to make me feeling sad . these past few years , i've done nothing but trying to make you realized how much i want to stay in your life . to be someone important in your life . i guess i tried too hard until it hit me at last that you never actually make any effort to make me stay .

hahaha . laugh at myself hard . for ever thinking about being the priority in your life .

but now is not the time for me to mourn about how terrible you have treated me these few years . i just want to wish you all the best in your quest in life and hopefully you'll never treat anyone else like you did to me . i guess i am just not good enough for you . we are entering a new phase of life after this and i know you'll not be in need of me anymore . neither do i . i hope that you don't push people away like that . please , for your own sake , consider about other people's feelings as well . above all , just to let you know , regardless what you will think about what i say , i already forgive you for all the things you've done .

life goes on . so should i .

p/s : feeling all teary after posting this . sobsss . tissue anyone ?

Sambutan Maulidur Rasul Peringkat Negeri Sarawak 2012

2012-02-06T01:46:00.001+08:00

hey y'all ! howdy ?! hahaha

so anyway first of all , SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL TO EVERYONE :)) it is a day to celebrate and we should celebrate it grandly ! so as usual , Miri will always have an annual parade to celebrate Maulidur Rasul and i always want to be part of the fiesta :)

well ,

it took me awhile what to wear to the parade . i just slipped into my blue baju kurung and off to the stadium with beloved mum , dad and my brother .

SERIOUSLY , BANYAK ORANG DATANG UNTUK PERARAKAN .

lebih banyak daripada biasa . daripada last year . jadi , saya pergi la mencari kontijen Kolej TDTHB . it was a little bit hard sebab banyak sangat orang kat tengah2 padang . cari punya cari , akhirnya jumpa la juga . dah sampai di tempat kontijen Kolej berdiri , saya pun bersalam dengan Ustazah Siti Rodhiah and Cik Hasimah . Agak lama x bertemu dengan mereka .

okay wait . seriously my attempt to post in BM is like totally fail . so im just going to go ahead with English .

From left : Ninie , me , Megat , Mazlan , Sazlan , Azza

so after bersalam-salaman , i met Sazlan , Mazlan and Megat who i saw at the parking space outside the stadium before . it was actually pretty exciting to meet them again . hahaha ;p teringat masa masih sekolah . hahaha ;p did talked to Miss Kath before we head off to the court . since we did not join them in the parade , we became the audience in front of the court . hehehe :))

warga2 Kolej getting ready for the parade

waiting . waiting . waiting .waiting

oh ! dah start ! and i saw Puan Sri Ragad Waleed Al Kurdi ! hahaha ;p not a fan but ntah , excited jwak nanga . ahahahaha

ninie and me

this one is team sazlan . sebab baju sazlan and them sama kaler . hahaha

our shadows .....

this one my favourite . look at that mini grand old lady ! hahaha ;p pretty awesome !

oh ya ! i forgot ! we also met radzi who currently still in PLKN and he's bald ! hahaha ;p funny ;p but we didnt see him during the parade . hmmm awkward . haha

Smk Baru Miri .

SMK LUTONG MIRI

SMK PUJUT MIRI

SMK ST JOSEPH MIRI

SM VOKASIONAL MIRI

AND FINALLY , KOLEJ TUN DATU TUANKU HAJI BUJANG MIRI

SM SAINS MIRI

right after Kolej , we head off to Imperial Mall to have our brunch . we managed to catch up with each other , Azza telling me and ninie her stories while eating KFC . hhehe :)

my tudung looks kinda weird . hahaha ^^

so i guess that's all . it was indeed a great day and i really appreciate every moments :)

p/s : it'ss difficult to make new friends . huhuhu :((

one step backward

2012-02-04T02:14:00.002+08:00

hi you guys .
sorry i didn't update anything yesterday . i was actually out of ideas of what i want to blog actually . and i guess i have some right now ?? *hmmm

anyway , it's February and everyone is getting excited about this month . everyone is getting ready their plans for this month including me , i guess . and don't have much to plan anyway . well , one of the things listed in my February planner is to get a driving license . teehee .

yes . i am currently going for my driving class and guess what ?! next week i am going to learn how to park , those sort of things . teehee . it was quite challenging because i always fear that i will eventually knock over something or someone . i just want to help my mum and my dad who have to rush every morning to send my brother and my sister to school early . because they also need to get to the office early too .

and note to everyone , i am deactivating my facebook account for awhile because of some personal reason . and i think it is a good thing for me to stay dormant until i actually have the courage to face the reality . i know that it looks like i am trying to run away from my problems . i just need some time to clear up my act , to clear my mind and somehow reset back all my perceptions about everything around me . i need to console myself .

i may not know what's ahead of me . i will just have to be brave to face the music .

these past few weeks , i've been struggling a lot with my own feelings . some of them are just deadly ridiculous and some of them are just sadly depressing . i don't feel like myself anymore . i don't even know what myself use to feel like . sometimes i really feel like the world doesn't include me . too many tears that i have shed to calm myself all over again .

and in the search of looking for myself , i've hurted a lot of people . i've talked a lot of bad things about other people . i made myself unapproachable to everyone . people come and go , i just can't tolerate on the statement . i will use all my effort to make that person stay , just to finally realized that some people are just not destined to be in my life . i can't bind them around my neck all the time . i always take all the safety measures to make everything works but in the end , i am nowhere safe at all .

to those people that i've hurted , i know saying it in my blog isn't going to make it any better , yet worser , but i just want to say that i'm sorry that i've been acting like a total douchebag . i don't take account of my words , i just let them spit out of my mouth like a bullet . i havent find the courage to face you , im sorry . i just need more time .

p/s : what a life -.-

hehehehehe

2012-02-03T01:45:00.001+08:00

will update something tomorrow ! till then :))))))))))))))))))

#9 wordless wednesday

2012-02-02T00:35:00.001+08:00

Big Bang Comeback 2012

y u no understand im sad ????!!!

2012-01-31T01:02:00.000+08:00

here . we . are .

don't ask me anything tonight . don't question me anything . i just want to be the one who talks now . these few weeks have been the turn offs for me . i keep on crying , whining and screaming in my head like i wish someone out there will listen to my scream . still , i have to endure all the feelings inside or else it'll shows .

hmm .

what a life ,. i know , i am grateful to be able to breathe and currently still . sometimes I wish that life was much simpler .no jealousy involve , no heart broken . no lonely night .

and here i am , listening to Jason Mraz's song and raping the play button over and over again .

memang forever alone la .

anyway , cut the c**p . guess what ?!! i bought myself a pair of shoes !! well technically i don't pay it myself , my mum paid it , so it's actually i have a new shoes which by the way bought by my mum ! hahahahahaha . ha .

this is the shoes !

i actually have a story behind this shoes . hahaha ;p

okay , so this day i was supposed to meet ckgu awang in front of my mum's school gate . since my mum was going to her office , i said i want to catch a ride with her to the gate . so i went to the gate and got into Ckgu awang's car . a few meters away from the school , suddenly i remembered !!!!!!

*back at home , wayyyyyy before i remembered

mum : this letter , you better give it to ckgu awang . it have been in my keep for so long

me : huh ? okay ? watever

I LEFT THE LETTER AT HOME !!!!!!!!!!!

screechhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

i had to walk back home and guess what ?! the white shoes that i wore for the driving class suddenly become like this .

i was freakin mad , that i just had to call Maey and just literally whine about it ! adehhhhhhhhhhhh -.- what a timing , shoes , what a timing -.-

so that's why i bought a new pair and that's my story . haha . i know . not funny at all .

so i guess that's all .

p/s : deactivating for awhile , dont ask why .

#8 wordless wednesday

2012-01-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

INTRODUCTION : ME IS NINIE

2012-01-25T00:06:00.001+08:00

tonight is not boring , i'll say but it is just not happening at all . dull . hahaha . the days has been raining off and on , the night breeze is quite chilly out there . anyhow , i did managed to survive the cold shower and washed my hair as well !

facebook is kinda quiet anyway so i shall not facebooking tonight ! hahahaha ! as if i will do the same .so right now i'm just blogging and texting my dear friend . haha . i know , you must be saying " does this AMAL LOSER need to tell the whole world what she's doing ??!! WTH ??! `" . YAAH , I THINK I NEED TO . SO BACK OFF YOU LOSERS hahahahaha ;p haters -.- they never get enough of us .

anyway , this is just a quick update . i recently but not very recent , edited a blog for one of my bestie , Ninie :) so this is the outcome . during my attempt of creating her a header , i had some difficulties to find the right header for her . and finally i did came out with an idea . GUESS WHAT , she liked it !

this is the header that i was talking about . hehe ^^ i found this bloggy that make this kinda pictures :)i kindly asked permission to use the pictures :)) i forgot what blog is that actually .

and yes , honestly , and i am not trying to say that i'm awesome or what , but the header looks fantastic ! i really love every details . so this is the blog that i am talking about :))

so if you guys want to read the blog , just click the image above and it will direct you to the blog :))

P/S : when feelings take over , we do things we don't normally do , say things we don't normally say , think about things we don't normally think about and act differently like we don't normally act

welcome boredom -.-

2012-01-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

hey hey hey :))

hahahaha ;p i'm bored . too bored to do nothing but online . hahahaha ;p anyway , my days are okay . i was going through my stuffs this morning and i found my old notebook . it was a blue , flowery notebook that i used during my form3 time which was in the year of 2009 . i browsed all the pages and found all the old poems that i used to write back then . hahaha ;p it was quite funny actually :) i couldn't believe i wrote all those stuffs . hahahaha ;p anyway , cut the c**p , this is one of the poem that i wrote :))

TANPANYA ,
HIDUPKU SEAKAN-AKAN KEHILANGAN ,
HARI YANG KU LALUI CUKUP BERBEZA DARIPADA BIASA ,
TERASA KEKOSONGAN MENGISI SELURUH RUANG ,
TERASA KESEPIAN DI LUBUK HATI ..
KEHILANGAN INI MENCENGKAM JIWA RAGAKU ,
MENGGAMIT SEGALA PERASAAN YANG TERBUKU DI HATI ,
SEAKAN-AKAN SEBAHAGIAN DARIKU DIRAMPAS ,
HANYA TINGGAL SEBAHAGIAN LAGI YANG TIDAK BERDAYA ,
SENTIASA KU IMBAU KEMBALI KENANGAN BERSAMANYA ,
KETIKA DIA MASIH ADA UNTUKKU ,
KENANGAN TERSEBUT BERMAIN-MAIN DIPANDANGANKU ,
SEGALA LANGKAH YANG KAMI CORAK BERSAMA ,
SEPERTI BERHENTI SETAKAT ITU ..
PERIT BAGIKU MENAHAN SENGSARA ,
BAGAIKAN MENELAN HEMPEDU YANG PAHIT RASANYA ,
BAGAIKAN BERDIRI DI ATAS TITIAN BERDURI ,
BAGAIKAN LEMAS DI LAUTAN API ...

SUKAR BAGIKU MENERIMA KEHILANGAN INI ..
DAN SUKAR UNTUKKU BANGKIT SEMULA ,
SELANGKAH DENI SELANGKAH UMPAMA ONAK YANG BERDURI ,
MENUSUK JAUH KE DALAM HATIKU ,
PERITNYA ! SENGSARANYA ! DERITANYA !
SEMEMANGNYA INI KENYATAAN YANG SUKAR KU TERIMA ,
YANG ADA DISISI KITA AKAN PERGI JUA
AKU TIDAK MAMPU MENGHADAPI KENYATAAN
BAHAWA DIA TELAH MENINGGALKAN AKU ,
SENDIRIAN DISEBUAH JALAN YANG TIDAK KU KETAHUI ARAH TUJUNYA ,
TANGAN YANG SELALU MEMEGANG ERAT TERSEBUT ,
TIBA SAATNYA UNTUKKU BERDIRI SENDIRI
TANPANYA DISISI MENGHULURKAN TANGAN TANPANYA .

hahahahaha ;) emo girl . hahaha ;p anyway , i don't even know WTH i was thinking when i wrote this . hahaha ;p i guess it was just for fun ;p

p/s : i guess you are better off without me

she's awesome :))

2012-01-22T23:12:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha

what to blog ?? i just want to blog but aint got nothing to blog about . anyway , i made a promise to a very dear friend of mine to post something for her :))

okay !!

her name is AIDA MADELY . I know her because she was in charge for registration for the PMGM camp . at first i texted her only to get to know more about the details of the camp . i never met her that time . during the camp , i saw a girl wearing a shawl and guessing that it must be Aida . hahahaha ;p and yes ! hahaha;p

at first i thought she was older than me , duhal sama umur . hahahaha malu jak nunggah ny kakak rie ya . EPIC FAIL . hahahaha

during the camp we became closer like we already knew each other for years ! hahaha ;p that's what great about her , i'm comfortable with her . i don't always feel like that with strangers . and i think it's pretty cool :)))

so .. hopefully we can be good friends ,right aida ?!! i know you're reading this ! hahahaha ;p

thanks for being a really great friend ;)) looking forward for more to come in our friendship . *cehhh calie da bunyi .. jiwang :)))

seriously aida , hana tajima . hahahaha ;p

p/s : mok drive ! mok drive !

perkampungan menara gading miri , taski ABIM

2012-01-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum . amboi .. mntang2 lamak dah x update , dah lupa i dah ? hehehe :)

anyway , last friday , i attended a camp called Perkampungan Menara Gading Miri . it was located at TASKI ABIM Miri . actually i never heard of the place before , i circled around piasau for hundred times . i was having a hard time looking for this place :))

so anyway , after registration , we started our first session :) the first session was with abg Hisyamuddin Roslan . he is so funny ! hahahaha ;p so we talked about what we want to do after SPM and a lot of other things . but he could stay for the evening because he had some business to do in bintulu .

so let's pictures do the talking shall we ?

zyma was so excited as i am when we arrived there ;p hehehehe :))) love her :)

so introducing , this is our room :)) but i didn't remember what classroom was that

bantal bucuk aida ;p hahahahaha

the guys from rumah anak yatim just arrived to join the party ;p cian awang . if the guys were not there , he was the only boy joining .

and this is aida . my super bubbly and friendly friend :) hehehe ^^

bakal ustazah Zymaa ;p bulat nyer muka !

our LDK result . we were supposed to make something to protect an egg by building something surrounding the egg . the first trial , our egg was still alive but the second trial , pfffftttttttt .

abang reza' heart straw . hahahahaha

explaining about the SIMON SAYS game ;p

can you see the fishgirl there ? hahaha aida's candid moment ;p

me and Ika :)) aida's twin sister :) she is so much fun to be with :)

the only post spm female student who attended the camp . * ada hana tajima !~ hahaha

kak hurun was giving us her goodbye words :((

so , overall , it was a fun camp :)) although we were not in a big number , we still enjoyed every single moment during the camp :) i met new friends *aida :) ika :) , i became closer with a friend of mine , zyma , sharing experiences with our seniors about the life that we are heading after this .

we formed a group so our group was with abang reza . zyma , aida and me were in the same group ;D sayang ika was not in the same group :((

i wish we could do this camp for 3 days and 2 nights . tapi xda rezeki . it's alright , msih okay jwak . plus , the food were fantastic ! angah aida yg sediakan :))

special thanks to Kak Hurun , Kak Alai , Abang Izzat , Abang Reza and Abang Fazril for making this camp so happening and fun !

p/s : shocked . truly shocked .

#7 Wordless wednesday

2012-01-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

P/S : i know it's kinda late but WTH .

#1 photogenic wonder : Hanna :))

2012-01-15T00:08:00.000+08:00

caught her sleeping like an angel on our sofa :)) so cutee :) the photogenic wonder !~

p/s : i wont run , i wont fly

the gloomy days

2012-01-13T20:57:00.001+08:00

have you guys ever feel like a total loser ?

like there's nothing that you can do to make yourself feels good at all ..

like you just want to bang your head against the wall ..

like there is something holding you back from being honest to yourself ..

there are times when i feel like that ..

the feeling of unappreciated ...

the feeling of disappointment ..

the feeling of frustration ..

the feeling of uselessness ..

sometimes i just want to run away from the reality . reality is hurtful and painful . most of all , reality sucks . everything that we wanted turned out to be a mere dream in reality . this feeling just keep on bringing me down and down until i almost hardly stand on my own feet .

oh night , blow away my emotion .. bring it far away , where my heart will never meet with the feeling ..

so i can forget about it effortless .

p/s : i'm bored and ... i don't what else ...

new look

2012-01-13T16:05:00.001+08:00

after struggling for a few days finding ideas on how to make my own header using photoshop ( i'm not saying that i am expert in photoshop editting , im new ! ) and a few hours to fix all the codes right so that i could achieved what i wanted , i finally came with this result ! yeayyyyyy !

presenting .. my new blog look !~

ta daaaaaa ! i know ze header is not that nice or anything . after all , it's my first attempt to make my own header using a more complicated photo editor . i usually use Photoscape only , but this time , i use Adobe Photoshop CS4 . and for me , the outcome of my project which is the header , turn out to be just great :)

the girl with the black hijab is me of course and the shoes actually has no meaning .

another snapshot .

this was the first version of the header . but i think it's kinda ugly . i know , it's my picture that is making the header uglier . urghhh . back off haters -.-

but later on , i searched for more idea and i came up with the current header ! yeayyyyy !

anyway , this time , i am using more new codes and i am kinda pleased with the outcome . more to come later .. who knows i can make better than this . well , my blog does look like a touch from an amateur's hand .

i just want to officially presenting my masterpiece ;p

#toodles !~

p/s : i'm am so freaking jealous+frustrated+irritated !~

PENCARIAN 100 BLOGGER MALAYSIA UNTUK PORTFOLIO SENI AA GRAPHIC

2012-01-13T15:42:00.003+08:00

HEY GUYS !

just a quick post entry .

i was reading Azhafizah's blog just now and there was a contest for all bloggers in Malaysia . so i think i wat to join . it looks kinda fun anyway :)

so , here's my entry

Tajuk : Pencarian 100 blogger Malaysia untuk Portfolio seni AA graphic
Nama : Amal Alynna
Tempat Tinggal sekarang : Miri , Sarawak
Join blog sejak : Nov 2008
Link blog : http://nienasmiley.blogspot.com

and the picture that i want to submit is

so you guys should join as well !~

a pinch of salt in my cake

2012-01-12T00:33:00.001+08:00

it has been awhile since i blog anything but just mere pictures . i want to blog about something but i just don't have any inspiration about what to story about . since my SPM break , i kinda like losing my ideas about what to blog . seriously i love to blog , for sure , it's just that i lost my idea about what to blog . there are times when i suddenly feel like to blog but then the idea that i had clearly in my mind suddenly disappear .

haha .. okay .. before you guys can say " what's wrong with this minah ?! " , let's skip the part where i start to whine about things happening around me .

okay .. 2012 .. well , simply said , my 2012 has started off pretty well . urmm .. i am currently taking my driving license which i am very eager to finish all the sessions and drive the car all around miri ! Imagine ! me driving ?? hahaha ;p i can't even imagine it myself ;p

anyway , actually i am veryyy and veryyyy and veryyyy and veryyy anxious about my SPM results which will be announce probably 2 months later . at this moment , 2 months doesn't sound like a long time . i can just close my eyes and POOOFFFFF ! it's the day that you have been waiting for , AMAL ! MUAAHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ;P

okay .. i just made a fool out of myself all over again .

huh .

i am freaking out . mentally and emotionally . the nightmares i have are just too terrifying . i need to get straight A's .

i want to prove to everyone else that i can be successful like my brothers .

i want to show those who always underestimate me that they have made a big mistake for doing so to me

i want to make my mother and my father feel proud of their first daughter .

i don't want to be the one who always been left behind anymore .

a serious gamble of my life that i have bet on my SPM result . please oh please Ya Allah .. i beg you , Ya Allah .

are you freaking out as i am ?? huh -.-

p/s : i wish i was better than before .

#6 wordless wednesday

2012-01-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

friends are like rainbow . they brighten your life after you've been through storm

a rainy day

2012-01-05T16:21:00.000+08:00

it's raining in Miri right now and it's raining hard . don't you guys just love the feeling when it's raining ? i know i do . i was watching winter sonata on my laptop and gosh that drama really rocks till now . what makes it more fun is that the actor is superb hot ! haha ;)

handsome :))))))))))))))))))

my aunt always say how she loves this drama so that's why i want to watch this drama . bae jong yoon !~ aigoo , i really want to have a love story like in the korean drama . a fantasy i know , but never a crime to dream about it :) who knows it may happen to me someday . let's just keep praying :p everyone needs a love story . everyone needs love . it's the most powerful thing on earth ! and in some case , gravity cannot be any greater than love . because at some point , love defines the gravity itself .

okay , i just make a nonsense out of myself .

talking about nonsense , my English is deteriorating . aigooo -.- i really need to improve more on my English dohhh . you can clearly see how bad my English has become . not only that , all the holiday has make me lazy to write which by then contributing to the reason why my handwriting is getting terrible . i can't even write well . hahaha ;p

and lazy i am . that day i was reading my table test book , of course because i need to get ready for my table test , i literally doze off at the fifth page . aigooo -.- i am surely going to fail after this . i guess i need to do my revision tonight . the test is on Saturday . i need to get ready soon .

so i guess that's all . i just feel like blogging , that's why i posted this . hahaha ;p weird much huh ? hahaha

p/s : waiting for miracle to finally appear .

#5 Wordless Wednesday

2012-01-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

miss her :)

2012-01-04T00:57:00.001+08:00

this kid over here is now going for her PLKN . to serve the country :) just a quick updated :) i am going to miss you so much pah !~ be good at the camp okay ??? hehe :) love ya :)

p/s : happy new school year to my juniors :)

My 2011 List

2012-01-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

the year of 2011 has ended and i am so glad that this year has been a great year . this year has been the worst , tough , heart breaking yet exciting , touching and promising year for me . i can't believe that my days of 2011 has finally coming to the end . and there are still a lot of things to do in this short period of time . life may be easier if i can reverse back the time and find all my flaws and mistakes during this year . this year has offers me a lot of new experiences , adventures and moments that i never expected to happen .

and this is my 350 post ! yeay !~

2011 is now over and i think i want to make a list of things that i have learn , face , accept and deal in 2011 .

Things That I Have Learn , Face , Accept And Deal in 2011

1 . at the beginning of the year , i have been struggling a lot to be accepted into the circle of society around me . in this drama of life , i always play the role as the people pleaser . sometimes i find it hard to please everyone because sometimes things went off the track and i find it difficult for me to put everything back on track . sometime i lost the right to blame someone else when things goes wrong . no matter how hard , how fast i want to run from the guilty feeling , i will always back to the same route again ..

2. I find that life is wonderful . everyday , i woke up form my bed and try to start the day with a brand new me and a brand new feelings all over despite the same lame daily routine that i have to go through . sometimes i feel like i never want to leave the bed , too afraid to find out what may happen to my day . but as time passes , i seems to find the strength for me to face any consequences that may happen . so cheers for that :p

3. true friends are definitely difficult to find . they are one in the million . you can search high and low , up and down , left and right , you find that it is very hard for you to find this special person . we can make a lot of friends but not the one who will stand by your side when others walk away . my search for this person has not yet ended but i discovered something else . all the people around me , those who laugh with , who makes my life seems a lot better than i thought it will be ,have shown me their true colour and by that , i finally sees who actually stands with me and those who simply think that my friendship is just for play . i have been hurt a lot and i have been experienced a lot of heartaches because of them but i am still grateful . thank you :) at least i learn to judge someone better than i did before .

4. to gain is to pain . because no pain , no gain . i learnt to accept the golden rule of the world . the world is harsh , deceitful , painful and mean and if you want something , you have to deal with all the pain that you will have to encounter in order to fulfill your dreams . i learn that i cannot sit back and relax anymore , waiting for miracles to happen like a drop of water falling from the pipe . no . i must act . in order to fulfill my dreams and wish , i have struggle a lot , hurt a lot , laugh a lot and cried . but at the end , everything seems to worth it at last . i may have fallen a lot but at least i have the courage to hold my head high say to the world that i am okay . i can deal with whatever .

so ...

2011 has been a very wonderful year for me :) there are ups and downs that had happened during my journey throughout the year . i learnt a lot about discovering myself and discovering the people who made my life more meaningful . there were times when i wished i could skipped the whole year but there were also times when i was simply grateful for what i had . nevertheless , i am grateful for everything that has happened . nothing last forever so goodbye 2011 and welcome 2012 . please be good to me :)

Ya Allah , i may not be a good person last time but please help me to be a better person each day .
Help me to improve my flaws and improve the cracks in all my relationship with the people i love
Help me and guide me through all the waves that are pulling me up and down in the sea of life .
Help me to be a grateful person and teach me to appreciate every single moment i will have in 2012 .
Help me to make my life a better life than my previous life .
Help me to make right decisions and learn from my mistakes so that i will always learn
Help me to make new connection with people who are making their efforts to be in my life and vice versa .
Ya Allah , please Ya Allah .
Hear my prayer
Amin Ya Rabbal'Alamin .

p/s : happy new year peeps :)

2011

2011-12-29T20:55:00.001+08:00

i am quite nervous myself about 2012 . i wonder what will happen to me later . will i make the right choice ? will i ever survive without causing any major problems ? will i ever get to know who's true and who's the faker ? will i be able to learn to depend on myself ?

there are so much more to ponder and wonder . as 2011 is settling to its ending , will i be able to find that inner strength to go through all that's waiting for me out there ? so many fears , so many things to conquer . hopefully i will find it soon . i will ABSOLUTELY need it . -.-

p/s : tomorrow .. agagaga '~'

#4 wordless wednesday

2011-12-29T02:09:00.000+08:00

i know it's thursday already . but i still want to post this :)

updates

2011-12-26T20:39:00.001+08:00

will update soon . i am now currently in my sick mode . *coughhhhhhh see that ??

#3 wordless wednesday

2011-12-21T23:25:00.003+08:00

say yes to HAPPINESS ♥

2011-12-21T01:28:00.001+08:00

everyone want happiness in their life . it is something that makes someone's life more meaningful , full of excitement and serenity . happiness is indeed a very universal word that describe thousands of things around us . there are a lot happiness in any random things . as for us , we specifically named our happiness based on particular subjects . we are happy . you are happy . he , she , them are happy . I AM HAPPY .

for me , my happiness lies in a lot of things around me . for example , my bed is the place where my happiness lies . the happiness of waking up on a really comfortable bed with a brand new list of hopes for the day happening or the happiness of laying on my bed with heart wishing for a wonderful dream that will takes me on a trip , out of reality .

it can be the time when i am sitting in a room with all my families around me . family is the most important thing in this whole world . couples break up , friendship end loose but one bond that will always tie us together is family bond . it feels great to see their smile when we are laughing about some funny relatives stories or a man in the tv drama was just acting silly . it is also a good thing to listen to their encouraging words when there is no one backing me up . because my misery is their misery and my happiness is their happiness as well .

my happiness also lies in my alone time . i love to be alone but i don't want to be lonely . when i am alone , i get to think all the things that has takes place in my life and change my life , moulding it into a better shape . sometimes it's great to have a hot cup of chocolate malt drink with me during my self time . i always think back all the things that makes me happy , makes me blushes and realized how empty my life will be without all of these . the silent air blowing into my heart , calming the very deepest part of my heart , telling me that i must not be afraid anymore . because my life is perfect .

one of my happiness is when i'm with my friends . friend is the one who understand us a lot better than we do . hanging out with my friends is one of the moment that i never forget at all . because sometimes when i am just too tired of all the stress contributed by all the events taking place in my life , laughing and talking to them instantly puts a temporary end to all my misery . so that i can think straight again and reevaluate all the things that i have done . they make the world stop for a second . that's why i love them so much . not because how good they are in making me laughing , but how hard they try to make me forget my misery for awhile and realized that i have nothing to lose in taking risk in my life .

and this one is special . my happiness is when i am praying or doa . Allah the Almighty , is the greatest happiness i have in my life . Allah is the greatest friend , the greatest listener and the only GOD that i believe in . sometimes when i am just too weak to even stand up after a fall down , when there is absolutely no one to understand my feelings , when there are times i need something to say to soothe my heart , i just simply turn to Allah . sometimes i literally just talk to Him as if ALLAH is in front of me , it eventually calm my heart . that's why i love ALLAH . no matter what i have done , ALLAH never fails to listen to my heart ♥

that's why i always try to appreciate all the little things that makes me happy no matter what :)

p/s : thanks ya ALLAH , i was terribly sad yesterday but today , i guess you've heard my prayers ♥

what a day -.-

2011-12-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

i don't understand what just happened to me today . i can't think right , i can't smile right , i can't talk nicely to anyone . everything spitted out of my mouth are harsh words and hurtful things to say . i don't even understand myself right now . everything seems wrong to me right now . i literally threw all my things all around the room . i was half screaming when i was talking to my sister . and the worst , i talked back at mother a lot today . astagfirullah . astagfirullah . astagfirullah . astagfirullah . astagfirullah . astagfirullah . astagfirullah .

what happened to me ? i guess i had done something wrong that i deserve this day .

ASTAGFIRULLAH , YA ALLAH , AMPUNILAH DOSAKU YA ALLAH . MUNGKIN AKU ADA MEMBUAT SESUATU YANG SALAH , YA ALLAH , AMPUNILAH DOSA-DOSAKU . YA ALLAH , TENANGKANLAH HATIKU YA ALLAH . AKU MEMOHON KEPADAMU YA ALLAH PADAMKANNLAH API KEMARAHAN YANG SEDANG MEMBARA DAN MEMAKAN HATIKU INI . YA ALLAH , AKU MEMOHON PADAMU .

p/s : i feel like a bad person .

I ♥ them :)

2011-12-19T01:53:00.000+08:00

it's raining right now and it's 1.33 am . i know , i am kinda like always sleep late . but i have to fix my bedtime so , today , i am going to sleep earlier than i always have ! hahaha :) sorry , i was supposed to blog this about a few hours ago , but i was too preoccupied by the shooting game . hehehe :) yes dear , i know i'm not pretty but i play shooting game . okay ?

okay , let's skip the nonsense part which i start to babble how my days are and just straight to the point . okay . so , my post today is about my little kittens that i dearly love :) they are the diamonds of my heart and i really really really really love them so much ! in fact , right now , they are actually playing in my room , biting each other's tail . huh ? what ? they might hurt each other ? NOOOOO LAAAHHH . they will not . hahahaha

okay ..

this is the Hanna's family . we caught her "EHEM EHEM" with a male stray cat which we named himas FEY MAO because he's HUGE . a few months later , she gave birth to this amazingly-super adorable kittens :)

Cat : annyeong !~ my name is MOMO .

my sister gave this name to this kitten :) i don't really like it but as long as she's happy , i'm cool with it .

this one is MUNCHIE . she's adorable ! hehehe :) she's the fat one between both of them . we called her MUNCHIE because she walk as if she has a really short leg . like a munchkin cat .

CUTEE ! KAWAIII !~

MUNCHIE :) IT'S REALLY TOUGH TO GET A CLEAR PICTURE OF HER :)

and this is the mother of the amazingly-super adorable kittens , HANNA :) i love this picture .

Momo and Munchie are a photogenic and they actually likes to take pictures , they just won't admit it ;p

this is the second family , Sheila's family :) she also 'EHEM EHEM' with the same male stray cat , FEY MAO . aigooo -.- i can't believe that they shared the same man . she gave birth to 3 cute-lovable kittens :)

this is BRUNO . i simply gave him this name because i was thinking about BRUNO MARS that time :p Bruno has a really round head and i really really love bruno !~

this is APIN . my sister , again , gave this name but i still don't really like it . but as long as she's happy ...

and this is PORSCHE :) hahaha :) why ? because he looks like a sport car with the white stripes on his face and because my brother and I love Porsche , so we named him Porsche . he's cute , really cute i tell you . hahaha ;p

see ! i like this picture A LOTTTT !~

OMG ! SO CUTE ! NASIB DAPAT AMBIK GAMBA THIS ONE !

sleepyheads buddy :) hahaha

this one is the third family , the Lisa's family . unfortunately , these two kitten are really hyperactive and it's difficult for me to get a really nice shot of them . maybe i will post about them next time ., will do :) oh ! the one on the left is MIHO and the one near the TV is GOKU .

okay ! got to go to sleep , MUNCHIE is getting a little bit edgy . hahaha :P toddles !~

p/s : i feel so lonely and confused .

clueless . speechless .

2011-12-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

i don't feel like blogging for a few days . i am really out of ideas . sorry readers ,guess you guys have to wait :(

p/s :sorry hanis ! xpat update this week ! xda idea :p heehe . still thanks for reading my blog :)

THINGS THAT I WOULD DO IF I HAVE A BILLION DOLLARS :)

2011-12-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

okay . as you all see , based on the title of the post , i maybe out of my mind right now . dusshhhhh . i am so bored ! i am more bored than a boring person . that's how bored i am right now . hahaha ;p but nevertheless , let's get to the business . since i already filled in the title column with the nonsense title *my english bery bery bad one* and i'm too lazy to think of anything better than that title , shall we ? hahaha ;p

so .. things that i will do if i have a billion dollars huh ? i never thought much on that anyway . what aaaahhh ??? okay .. let's start listing down the things ..

NAMMBAAHHH ONE !

i want to buy a private plane with my own pilot and stewardess . i will always use my private plane to go anywhere and perhaps ITALY ?? KOREA ??? OKINAWA ??? LONDON ??? HOLLAND ?? HAHAHAAHAHAHA ;P

NAMBAAAHHH TWOOOOO !

I WANT TO GO TO THE MOST EXPENSIVE FACIAL TREATMENT !
and maybe try out the diamond treatment or the gold facial treatment ka , sounds fun you know . to have a layer of gold on your face :) hahahha ;p

NAAAMMMBAAAHHH THWEEEEEEE !

i want to buy all DKNY perfumes and all the expensive perfumes all around the world !! hahaha :p yes ! i have always been the fan of perfume ! ahahahaha ! and i want to create a perfume line inspired by me :) named by me :) hahahaha !

see ... my perfume line . hahahaha ;p

NAMMMBAAAHHH FOOOUURRRR !

i want to wear a brand new outfits everyday ! i want to wear new clothes , new shoes every every every and every effin day ! hahaha ;p and it must be custom made for me . no clothes will be wear twice hahahahaha !~

NAMMBAAHHH FUHHHHIIIIVEEEE !

I want to buy one day with BIG BANG AND 2PM ! hahaha :) i want to take pictures with them , lunch with them , dine with them and do anything fun with them ! specifically , i want to HUG taecyeon and taeyang :)) aigooo oppa !! hahahaha :p

NAMMMBAAHHHH SIXXXXX !

I want to buy the biggest mansion that make everyone goes " WTH ! WOW ! " hahahaha ;p complete with the most expensive furniture and grand foyer that will dazzle everyone's eyes ! hahahaha ;p and a really magnificent and picturesque garden of roses :p

NAMMMBAAAHHH SEEVVVEENNNN

I want to own a collection of PORSCHE . i am not a car person but i like porsche very much . hehehe :)

i guess that's all .

everyone , this post is made not because i just won a lottery or something , just my mere imagination :) so about me getting a billion dollar is not going to happen , unless if it does happen , i will let you guys know for sure :) hahaha ;p

p/s : nice of you to talk to me again :) love u :) ! as a friend ! hahaha ;p

Did Paris Hilton Convert to Islam ?

2011-12-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

JEDDAH - Saudi Arabia - Former American socialite, Paris Hilton has converted to Islam, her spokesman, Ian Brinkham, has revealed to CBS news.

"She has been toying with the idea for quite a while now and when she was imprisoned at Century Regional Detention Facility in 2007, she encountered a few people who had already converted," Mr Brinkham said.

By converting to the Muslim faith, Paris Hilton has decided to shun her old life as a celebrity skank.

Speaking from an Islamic study retreat in Jeddah, she said: "I have now found total peace in my life. Before, I used to be known as an STD-ridden streetwalker , a 'hoe' and a person of loose morals, but now, things have changed. Allah be praised."

Hollywood Jihad

Ms Hilton plans to return to Los Angeles next week to start her own Islamic school in the middle of Beverly Hills.

"Forget Scientology or Kaballah. This is the religion to be in now. I'm not going to be wearing a piece of red string on my wrist or walk around like a robot talking to Xenu. Islam is the new must-have religion. and I'm going to spread the word of the Koran to everyone," an excited Paris Hilton said.

Paris Hilton also plans to change her name to 'Tahirah' which means 'Pure, chaste' in Arabic. Her Islamic school will open in July and is set to become a popular Hollywood spiritual haunt for many celebrities

are the news telling the truth or not ?
i have no expectations on this news but i am hoping to know the truth .

p/s : 2011 is almost over , dangg .

OUTING DAY !~

2011-12-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

hi .. just finished my bath just now . and now i'm feeling much better and ready to blog again . so as i said at my previous post , i am going to show you guys some of the photos of our outing day !~ hehehe .

i went out for girls time with my loves , Miss Azza and Miss Maey :) Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly and as planned . hehe ^^ we promised to meet up in front of the Popular store ( as usual ;p ) and then went off to look for a place to munch munch munch ~ finally , we went to KFC , ordered our food and sat comfortably to enjoy our lunch :) we spent an hour and a half just to catch up with each other's updates :)

then we're off to explore the place and just have fun joking with each other :) i am going to miss this day so much :) especially AZZA JUNG AND MAEY KIYEN yang gila gila ya hahaha :)

munch you go , azza ! hahaha ;p

i love her :) ME and Maey

pocketful combo :) my lunch for the day :) finally i did managed to finish it :)

maey was too preoccupied with Azza . candid moment :)

i love her :) Me and Azza Jung

in the fitting room and azza was on phone with her mom :)

we went to the photo booth store and picked the 9 photos package which cost us RM18 . gila mahal !

excited !~

inside the photo booth ^^ excited !

unexpectedly , Maey wore a dress that day ! if you know her , you would be surprised like i was that day :p

i love this photo :)

sorry kak ^^ lamak sangat dlm booth ya :)

care to buy the "kiss my ass" key chain ? sale for RM8 only . hahaha ;p

waiting for the photos :) love the outcome of the photos

after we went to the photo booth , we went off again , walking here and there ! hahaha :) i even met up with my primary school teacher , Cikgu Tipah . she's the best :) the funny part was , the first thing she said to me " dah besa dah ktk oh amalina .. "

hahaha :) malu ......

exactly at 4pm , my mum called me and she said she want to pick me up already . saddening but i must go :( but anyway , i was having a great time thanks to my beautiful best friends :) thanks dear for the day :)

i bought this for makni ! a phone bag and a cosmetic bag . she requested for it :)

CHANGGG ! the key chain i told you :) cost me a lot but xpa laa .

love it :)

closer look :) N for Niena ( me ) , M for Maey , and A for Azza

the final photos :) there were actually 9 photos all together but i took 3 of them , maey took 3 , and azza took 3 as well :)

love this :)

sunset of the day :) magnificent :)

p/s : that's a wrap . oh "charles " , have you given up on me yet ? hahaha ;p

#2 wordless wednesday

2011-12-14T23:12:00.000+08:00

The Nanny Fever :)

2011-12-14T00:25:00.001+08:00

hey guys and girls out there ! how are you people ? i'm sure you guys are just fine . anyway , i can't help it but being super excited for tomorrow to come ! i am going out with my girls tomorrow ! yeay ! we have so much to do and so much to talk ! i can't wait to meet azza and chit chat with her all day ! plus , i really need to go out of the house . some days i just want to escape from the house and just have fun with myself and my friends :) i already prepared my bag and all the things that i think i will need to tag along . oh ! and my pinky camera to capture the moment frozen forever ! photos tomorrow okay ? but today , we will be talking about ...... THE NANNY !~

YES ! THE NANNY ! what ? you don't know what is THE NANNY ? THE SUPER-INCREDIBLE-AND-INDISPUTABLY-THE-GREATEST-SHOW-EVER ? let me introduce you a bit about this show okay ??

you know the one thing that makes me want to watch television ,
the reason why i need to sit in front of the tv before 6 pm ,
the reason why i never got tired of watching the same thing all over again ,
is because of the show called The Nanny .

yes . this show . haha ;p

i was born on the year of 94 and this show was first made its appearance on 3rd November 1993 . it was like a year back then .

still this show ROCKS TILL NOW .

the cast of this show is . . .

the main role of the show which made this show superbbbb is Fran Drescher . she played the character of Fran Fine , the nanny :)

Charles Shaughnessy as Maxwell Sheffield , her employer who eventually became her husband :))

Lauren Lane as Cece Babcock , Maxwell Sheffield's business associate :) she has been trying to get his attention but unfortunately , Sheffield didn't see her that way .

Niles the butler . the most appealing character in the show besides Fran Drescher and Charles Shaughnessy :) he and his sarcastic humor . hahaha ;p

Nicholle Tom , Maxwell first daughter :) she's gorgeous you know :)

Benjamin Salisbury , the second child and the only son of Sheffield family . he's cute ^^

and of course , the last child , the apple of everyone's eyes in the show , Madeline Zima :) she's awesome and adorable :)

so this show basically about a bubbly woman who worked at a bridal shop together along with her best friend , Val Toriello and her boyfriend , Danny . then Danny told her to stop seeing each other and fired her on the spot to make her position available for his new girlfriend , Heather Biblow . She started to sell cosmetics from door to door when she eventually knocked on the door of Sheffield's residence . She was then hired as their new nanny to 3 children ; Maggie Sheffield , Brighton Sheffield and Grace Sheffield . Also served Maxwell Sheffield was Niles the butler who soon became Fran's best friend :) and Maxwell's business partner , Cece Babcock who had a thing for him for ages . that was the starting point of Fran's amazing life began , from her first meeting with Maxwell Sheffield until she finally married him :)

it was a great show , i promised you unless you are the person who disliked English drama then what a loss . hahaha :p

that's all i guess . to watch the first episode , go to this link : HERE LOVE :)

p/s : cant wait cant wait !~ hahaha ;p

you can't simply force a girl to love you .

2011-12-13T12:44:00.001+08:00

hey peeps !~
aigoo . today has been a cold day . as the grey clouds starts to pour every single drops of raindropns onto the earth , setting a mood that made me wanting to stay beneath the heat of the thick , protective blanket . aigooo ^^ love the rainy season . but what i hate the most about the rainy season is that when i need to wear my favourite jeans , it is still dripping wet because there's NO WAY my jeans are going to be dry overnight . aigooo -.-

hmm ..
what ?
say again .. what ?
oh ! my post title ? hahaha ;p it is actually meant to get you guys attention . but i am not fooling around with the statement .

YOU CAN'T SIMPLY FORCE A GIRL TO LOVE YOU

i had this experience before and on going now . why is it so easy for people nowadays to say those words of love ? I LOVE YOU is a strong and powerful phrase . it can change someone's perceptions or someone's behavior , it's too powerful that if you use it wrongly , you may end up in a big mess that you don't even expected .

so please , don't use those words until you are certain of what you feel . because sometimes what you feel maybe not LOVE , instead it's INFATUATION . yes , i had the same experience as well .

"There are some feelings we have when infatuated that we don’t have when we’re feeling love. Some of the “symptoms” of infatuation are; feelings of panic, uncertainty, overpowering lust, feverish excitement, impatience, and/or jealously."

we will feel like wanting to be someone's center of the universe . we want them to say we're beautiful , handsome , cute . we want them to tell us that they can't live without us . we want them to never lay their eyes on other people at all exceptionally us . believe me , that feeling is not a comparison to love feeling . i can't explain how love feels like because i haven't experience it yet .

so , i guess that's all . i know i'm rambling nonsensely without even thinking what am i writing actually . hhaha ;p

p/s : will you just leave me alone ?!

Eclipse !~

2011-12-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

hi ! and hi ! and hi !*okay now, i just make it weird .

okay .. have you guys witnessed the eclipse yesterday ? i do ! wow . SUBHANALLAH ! i was amazed to see the eclipse . i was so excited to watch the moon yesterday , i didn't even care about the 7 mosquitoes bites i got for standing outside . well , i'm not the only whos was excited to see the eclipse yesterday . aaaahhh .. eclipse remind me of someone . hehehe :) of course , he was the one in my mind when i saw the eclipse yesterday :) and he is ....

yup . he was the one in my mind . heart you robert :))

anyway , here's some pics that we managed to capture yesterday . well , the image of the moon was disappointing because my camera wasn't powerful enough for the task . but any wise , enjoy :)

they are excited as well :)

yeah .. not nice at all . so i guess that's all . the other photos are too blurry for me to show it to you guys :)

p/s : you can't simply force a girl to love you . especially when the girl is me .

everybitsofherlife :)

2011-12-12T02:12:00.001+08:00

hey hey ..
yes , im blogging again at 2.09 am today :)
i just want to waste a few minutes posting this post .
anyway , my bestfriend , Maey Kiyen , has a new BLOG ! yeay !
so i just want to promote her blog to everyone . she's a wonderful person , believe me okay ?
so go to this site : everysweetbitsofmylife and start following her :)

p/s : can't wait ! outing day !

wake up , sleepy head !~

2011-12-10T08:35:00.001+08:00

hello ?! wake up ! rise and shine ! haha :p off the bed now okay ? it's a brand new morning and a brand new day for us to explore and enjoy :)

p/s : looking forward for that particular day . aigooo -.-

im bored .

2011-12-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

hahaha :) im bored . so bored that i can't believe that i want to post about how bored i am . hahaha :) i know everyone out there probably having the best time of their life while im stucked here doing merely nothing . hahaha :) so it's holiday ! i should enjoy every bits of time during my holiday because after this i will not be able to have fun this much anymore :) so , i already started my reading on a book that i bought in Kuala Lumpur last time .

as you can see at the book cover , the author of this book is Randa Abdel-Fattah . it is quite an interesting book but i am yet to know the whole content . as i said , i just started reading it . so the summary ? lepas i baca habis laaaaaa :)

anyway , want to what am i doing usually when i'm online ?? okay .

1 . FACEBOOKING

sometimes i can be too addicted to facebook . it's not that im popular , it's because i like to see people's statuses and pictures they uploaded . hahaha :) besides that , wall-ing and commenting with my friends :p

2. CHATTING WITH MY BESTIE :)
yes ! chatting with her is so much fun although i do that everyday non stop . hahaha :) she's a great company when im bored or sad or just plainly crazy . hahaha ;p

3. TWEETING ;p
best best .. because it's like facebook .. only that you can't comment , people update it every second , pictures uploads , errr .. did i said it was the same like facebook .. ermm i take it back then hahaha ;p

4 . BLOGGING

i love to blog ! because ... because ... just cause ! hahaha :)

okay , that's all ;p

p/s : ajiz ! aino okay ??? hahaha ;p

you'll have to cry me out . once and for all .

2011-12-09T16:12:00.000+08:00

this week is a really messed up week . huh -.- and still i want to blog everything . huh . it has been a frustrating , annoying , irritating week ! why don't you understand the reason for my decision ? until you intentionally said those hurtful and unexpected words to me . what a liar . for a second i thought you were the same person i knew long before then you showed up to me and opened the mask where your true-self hide .

huh . i guess i won't regret the decision that i have made . hopefully that everything will turn out the way i want it to be . i should have told you earlier before . i guess i was just too blinded with the attention that you showered on me . last night was a really long night . it's hurtful but i must do what's needed . in this situation , one of us must got hurt . i am sorry , but i couldn't just stand there without any hint of curious whether what you've said to me were actually real or not . i know it was hard for and so do i . i am sorry for pushing you so hard to accept my decision but it was the best decision for both of us . and i hope that we would have no more contacts in the future . i don't wished to see you anymore or hear from you anymore . so , it's a forever goodbye .

p/s : alhamdulillah .. alhamdulillah :)

#1 wordless wednesday ♥

2011-12-07T18:45:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥♥♥

guess we are not meant to be -.-

2011-12-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

yes . i do think that i should follow my heart . i been think a lot and hard , really hard . and i have come to a decision .

dear YOU ,

we have known each other for so long . i still remember the time when i firstly know you and it was through one of my best friend . you came into my life , turning everything upside down . but still you managed to captured my heart . you've waited for me for so long , you've been caring for me for so long . i knew how deeply you care for me .

suddenly you asked me that one particular question and i've answered it with honesty . but the question has made me into thinking about all the possibilities of our friendship . will we go beyond friendship again or remain as best friend ? i took a lot of time , just to determine what i really feel .

i'm sorry . this may not be easy but everything has to stop . i don't want to be a liar anymore nor i want to lie to you any longer . before anything goes wrong , before everything starts to collapse . i admit , i truly enjoy your company for the past years . you never changed since the day i knew you . and your soothing , comforting words never changed ever since . but i can't let this relationship to develop into something more bigger than it has been before . i am sorry , but i guess you and i are just can't be . and i believe my decision is the best for both of us , today , tomorrow and in the future . i will still care for you :)

i guess we are not meant to be . i guess .

p/s : done with it . hopefully everything goes smoothly as i planned , please ya Allah ?

#1 AFTERSPM PLAN :)

2011-12-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

hello there !~

hahaha :) yes , i am blogging AGAIN at 12:00 pm . i was watching my Korean drama just now but paused it for awhile to update my blog . i was thinking about sleeping early today since i've been the loyal fan of 3 AM sleepers but since my PERSONAL TASTE EP 6 still downloading for another one hour , i guess i can stay awake for awhile :) okay .

today is the 5th day after spm . and i still feel like it's been forever i'm in holiday . i am really jealous of beyb who get to go to Korea for her holiday but what the hell . i will work my butt off to go that places with my own money . i always have this dream where i can have a personal fan moment with the big bang and 2PM . aaaaaa ! i will absolutely fill up my camera memory with the pictures of them and me ! i want to hug taecyeon , taeyang , nickhun ! aaaaaaa ! it's a dream and please , Allah , make it real ?? please Ya Allah ? well , hopefully it will turn out to be a reality when i have the money :))))

so , today ! i managed to clean up all my stuffs and books :p it took me the whole day to sort out all the unnecessary and important things . then i boxed them all ! hahaha :p so here's some pics :)

look how messy the room is ! boxes , bags , papers are everywhere !

my bag :) the squared pattern is new :)

so everyone , this is the bag that i used to go to school . pink :))

see how unorganized my stuffs are ! even my 17teen magazine is in the pile of the paper . and i actually found it ! hahaha :)

papers to be sort out and labelled as NECESSARY and UNNECESSARY .

yes dear , this is the desk where i study and everything . and it's a NIGHTMARE , haha :p

done with all the books ! all my books are in the two boxes !

my SOCKOFAN :) i always bring it together with me :)

my SPM papers . bye bye form 5 ! ~ will miss the time during spm :)

and i found this ! the tissue that Angie gave to me ! hahaha :) love it :) still keep it till now , definitely will go into my nostalgia box :)

okay , i want to finish watching secret garden for awhile and then head to my bedroom !~

OJANE !~

p/s : gradually .. and slowly ...

funny moments :p

2011-12-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha . i never get tired of this scene . i can always rewind and rewind while laughing at no min woo's face when seungi gi oppa pulled him away from the altar .

p/s : after this , secret garden :p

Reminiscing #2 Majlis Mohon Restu Form 5 KTDTHB :)

2011-12-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

okay ! setting the mood right ..

*click song folder , browsing up and down . aah ! click the song . put on my headphone .

okay ! hey bloggers ! right now is 01:28 am which tells us that i will be sleeping really late tonight . initially , i was bored to death and decided to shut down my laptop but i remember my duty to update my dearest blog *ceeehhh * . anyway , i've done my duty and here it is .

this post today is about our majlis mohon restu that was held on Friday 11th of November 2011 which exactly 3 days before SPM week . we started with Solat Hajat at surau *sorry no pics !* , then proceeded to Dewan Baru for the majlis . it was also the last day of schooling session of 2011 , so it was quite emotional day . i'm sorry for the language wise . i totally mixed up my tenses . never mind .

so , of course , to keep these moments frozen , i took along my sweet camera together with me and i took a bunch of pictures . they were not the best but it would do .

so , camera ROLLING !

aarrghh . i miss them :) Azza on the left and Ninie on the right .

so the ceremony started . there were no decoration or anything but this ceremony meant a lot to us :))

The emcee for the day were Faziatul and Farahin . didn't expect that . they rocked it :)

My Bestie ! Azza NurShafira . love her :)

Mr Philip Ngo's speech . our YDP for PIBG .

no study , fail right ? so my dear ninie took a really wise step ; revising Chemistry in the middle of the ceremony . hehe :p

a lump on my finger , i didn't even know what is it .

Ninie and me ^^

Slideshow ! all 5 Tekun laughed when we saw the slides . there were also videos made by every class . and our class was the one who has the longest video . anyway , it was a beautiful video . i didn't have the videos because i didn't know where to get them .

err .. i don't remember this one ..

oh ! the teacher were asked to go on the stage ...

.. to receive a gift for each teacher as a token of appreciation from all the students of Form 5 .

then it's our time to go on the stage ..

... to express our gratitude to all the teachers that were supportive in order to help us in preparation for spm :)

Ninie and me were playing with the camera to kill our boredom .

i don't remember . sorry !

oh ! look at the time !~ my watch :) it broke off on the last week of the spm . i guess when the spm was over , so did my watch :) hahaha :p

it's forgiveness time ! we all hugged and cried together . saying sorry to everybody whom we might hurt during the days of our schooling years :) it was too sad that i didn't take any pics . i couldn't take pics while crying . hahaha :p

Acha was feeling hot and stood in front of the fan while posed for the camera .

Ninie's table . it was right next to me . yeeay ! at least i have my bestfriend with me during the exam :p

Mine :)

Tyrah's desk :)

the boys discussing about something , what could it be ???

Tyrah and Asyraf

Azza's desk :)

Nino's desk ! he sat behind Ninie :)

Nino and me :)

Maey's desk :)

Cpah's Desk :)

Rafiq and Cpah :)

Cpah and me :)

Cpah :p

the boys getting ready for pics

introducing ... the Geng Kentut ! hahaha :)

second pic !~

audrey and i were taking pics with her handphone .

Haziq , our kamen rider and Ninie .

the hall was full of noises ! great time great time !~

ninie and i ! she was even whiter ! hahaha :p

yeay ninie ! peace to you !

Angie ! my bestfriend :) i really missed her . haha . i always disturbed her recess time just to chill and story-story with her . sorry dear !

Zie and Me ! love her . she's gorgeous and hilarious !~

this is my adik , Zulaikha . a bubbly and sweet girl :)

the other Collegians were doing some performances . i didn't remember what .. hahaha :p

Azza .. malu malu .. hahah :)

the fruit tartlets ! it was divine ! plus , it's CHEESE !~ credits to Zulaikha ! thanks dear !

the goody bag i got from the prefectorial board :)

.. and they gave me a mug ...

....full of sweets !~

insyaAllah , ustazah , i will get straight A's . this flag came with a small cupcake but i ate it and forgot to take a picture of it :)

okay ! well then , that's a wrap . so that's all for the entry today . more updates coming !

p/s : i don't miss him , i certainly don't love him . huh . . . .

#1 Lazy Sunday

2011-12-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

hahaha . hillarious !~

i found this website as i was browsing people's twitter profile .

it's www.epicfail.com . hahaha i also found this one but more eww-issh .. it's http://www.partyfail.com .

you guys should check it out !

p/s : ignore you ignore you ignore you ignore you

I want to meet them before i get old please :))))))

2011-12-04T00:46:00.000+08:00

please please please please please oh please !

i want to meet them before i get old and they will gel older , huhuh

Hyung Taeyang ^^ cute :)

Hyung TOP hottt ^^

NO Min Woo oppa ^^

neomu neomu neomu neomu Cute Seung Gi :)

Khunnie Cute ^^

Ok Taecyeon Oppa ^^

p/s : ...................................... ?

chingu . you are my chingu ?

2011-12-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

Chingu . Be-po . hmm ..
sometimes we don't feel like that right ? we are most likely to feel like we are acquaintances . not quite a friend . it's funny when you say that we are more than just a chingu but the feelings aren't present there . tell me . what did we done wrong ?

what did i done wrong ?

what exactly went wrong .

i do what you told me to . i care for your feelings because if i don't ,i am afraid that we are no longer chingu and i will be the biggest loser in this relationship . funny when you started to realize that you are a people pleaser .i know i do . and by the time i know that is what i am , u made it seems like it was all a little too late .

let me tell you something .
it's okay to not care about anything what people say about you .
it's okay for not saying thank you in some occasion
it's okay for saying things that may mistakenly sounded like insults to the listener

but

i don't tolerate people who knows how to juggle with other people's heart but doesn't know how to stop until they started to be so clumsy and drop all the hearts that they juggled just now . my dear , my heart , my feelings are not something that you can simply play with . i may seems weak to you , i may seems vulnerable to you but i never , repeat , NEVER give you any permission to do anything to my feelings ! it is still not an excuse for you to simply play me that way .

you say me a pokerface ? how bout you look into the mirror and you will definitely see its twin ; you .

p/s : no more .

first try .

2011-12-03T16:30:00.000+08:00

hey there !

hahaha

fuhh . today seems like a really long day and i am absolutely tired . i didn't sleep last night . i managed to steal some nap time for half an hour just now na dnow i am back on the seat , facing my laptop . i was planning to update more on the 'reminiscing' post but i guess not today . during dawn , i suddenly felt like drawing a picture of an eye . so i looked up for tutorial in the internet , found one !

so i grab all my stationery needed to draw this picture but i only have a mechanical pensel , a 2b pensel and a green eraser that i borrowed from nino last time ( and i still haven't return it yet :p ) but it's okay . i still carry on with the drawing .

okay ... here we go ....

TAAAADDDDDAAAAAAAA !~

I KNOW ! IT LOOKS UGLY !!!!

FOR COMPARISON :

the left one is the one that i took from the tutorial website , the right one is mine . it's ugly right ? nevertheless , i screwed up a lot at the iris . doing all the highlights is friggin' annoying me . haha . but i still try right and practice makes prefect so i will keep on trying . i didn't do the below eyelashes because it just won't work anymore with my eyes drawing . hahaha

please have a share of laugh at my painting but i'm new so you might want to be a little gentle with your criticism later okay ??

p/s : going to a wedding tonight !~ awesome . but what should i wear ? Dang !~

Reminiscing #Last Day of 5 Tekun :)

2011-12-03T09:13:00.000+08:00

hi there ! sorry for the late update . i was preoccupied for awhile and now im back on track .

so today i want to post about our last day at school , 10th November 2011 . what i mean by last day was that it was the last day that we would be able to be together in our class . hehe . time flew away really fast that day. when i was browsing through all the photos , i suddenly had a hint of sadness in my heart because i knew that i would never find anybody like them ever again .

it was like our last gathering together , before we all parted and took our own path in our journey called life .

i guess more photos and less talking . okay .

Azza was reading Kanus Di Perbukitan . very hardworking :p

this one was during addmaths class . we were all sad when Miss Chen suddenly said that she would miss us . who've ever thought that the teacher who always patiently teaching a bunch of maniac students who never kept their mouths shuts in the class would miss us :) so sweet :)

Me and Helen Catherina :) the greatest person that Collegians would never forget at all . after all , where can u find a person who's exactly like her ? one of a kind i say .

Me and Megat . we barely knew each other because he entered Kolej during last PMR Pasca 2009 . but he's a wonderful person :)

Me and Adi . i knew for a long time but this year was the year i got to know him better . he's a wonderful person once u got to know him . a really great friend and he treated his friends very well . just don't hate him when he's singing . he's famous for making a song lyrics off the tracks . hahahaha :p

Malcolm . sorry girls , he's Azza yang punya . hahaha kidding . i dont even know he's owned or not . but he's a really good listener as well as a great friend when u needed him . i am absolutely will missed him and his ramblings . hahaha :)

the last day we got to enjoy Azza's nasi beriyani :)

me and esther . my bawang putih . hahaha . there's a story behind it but i wont plugged your ears by telling you my nonsense story about us . naahhh ..

anyway , she's wonderful . beautiful as well , a great singer and a great friend :)

Me and Angie ! love her :) we were both prefects last time and that made us bonded . she was absolutely gorgeous and still now . i love her for being the greatest listener that i always turned to . i will absolutely missed her : /

Steph :)))

Cheese ...... cake ??

Steph , Angie , Joe

she's kinda preoccupied with the chocolate :)

steph's hand witha written 'smile'

Me and Sazlan . well , let's just say i love him for being a great friend :) he's wonderful and funny sometimes .

Nino and tyrah . will always missed them :)

My bestfriends ! Me , maey , Azza :) i love them very mucchh :) neomu neomu neomu neomu neomu joha !:)

Nino acting cute . again . hahaha :)

barbara . our beloved class monitor . hehe .

again nino ..

Me and Nino . he's my friend and i will always cherish all the helps , the advice he had given me . they were priceless :)

Esther , Erna , wafa

wafa :) our Dalat girl . she's the most incredible person i ever know . she sleeps a lot in class but she still able to maintain her position as the first place student in class for 5 years ! imagine that !

esther and erna :)

audrey :) our bubbly friend :) love hanging out with her , she's gorgeous and a really really really great friend :)

esther and azza

azza and her sulu , audrey

audrey and me :)))

audrey and esther !

wafa and me

audrey :)

hahaha

malcolm , Tyrah and nino

Irwin and me . our penguin :) not in a bad way okay ;p

signing off the bye-bye card :)

Malcolm was drawing cartoons , leaving some of his 'legacy' on the desk . ahahha

azza and me . nae bogo shipeunde , i will really missed her . she's the best i tell you . :))

Tyrah and me . i will absolutely missed our Tikus tyrah :)

Ckgu Ling Ying :) our biology teacher ::)

who wrote that ????!!!

the bye-bye card :)

Cpah and me . I would really miss her . she helped me alot with my studies and one of my incredible friend ever ! love her to the bits :)

campbell :)

Jeremy :)

here's my signature :)

that's all !

p/s : more updates coming up !~

sorry

2011-12-03T02:40:00.001+08:00

can't update tonight . too tired and still a lot of stuffs to do . tomorrow , perhaps ??

Wait .....

2011-12-02T19:20:00.001+08:00

TUNGGU YAA ??? I WANT TO INSTALL SOMETHING FIRST . UPDATE TONIGHT :)

2011-11-06T01:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes .

2011-10-17T22:59:00.002+08:00

Perri Vs Voldemort

2011-10-13T18:47:00.001+08:00

How Voldemort found out that Dumbledore and Harry Potter were friends with Snape ;p

2011-09-24T19:11:00.003+08:00

maybe .

2011-09-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

Must love cats ♥

2011-09-23T16:21:00.002+08:00

isn't he a cutie ???? :) alaaalalalalala .. i mean come on ! look at his round face ! you can't help it but smile everytime you see his big round head , round eyes ! omg .. cute !!

ROUND EYES . ROUND HEAD .

too cute ! can't help it !

yes . i admit it . i am a cat lover . people said that i am act not like i was supposed to be . you know people .. everyone's a critic . but i am truly head over heels over cats !

things that i love about cat is ....

1 . their fur .. i love to tousle their fur or their whiskers .

2 . their big round eyes and especially when something catches their attention .. like this ..

3 . love their looks when they are curious about something . curiosity does make cat cuter :)))

4. when they asking for attention . they will make a lot of poses to make sure you had your eyes on them ..

5 . their cute , little pinky nose !

6 . when they just trying to stay in bed all the time ...

AND MORE !!!

I JUST LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM :))♥

AND ... LOOK AT THIS . FUNNY :D

please watch MUST LOVE CATS on ANIMAL PLANET , channel 556 .

WHEN ?

WHEN ?????

WELL , WHEN ??????

TODAY ! FRIDAY ! AT 9PM !

p/s : you just got to love cats :)

dark lord , what's with the pale face ?

2011-09-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahahahaha ! HILARIOUS !

facebook .. Don't disturb me ..

2011-09-22T00:11:00.001+08:00

days .. after days ...

2011-09-21T20:03:00.001+08:00

blogging mlm2 nie ?

2011-09-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

perrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .. rasa geram pulak lepas baca blog sorang nie . xnak kalah .. saya pun nak update jugak !~

p/s : erghh .

awwww :)

2011-09-17T01:30:00.001+08:00

LOOK AT MY TULIPS ! SO BEAUTIFUL :))))))))))))

I die ! you die ! everybody die ! hahahha :p

2011-09-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

I hate it ...

2011-09-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

and i say ..

TRUE .

Salute !~

2011-09-11T12:32:00.000+08:00

I've decided .

I WANT TO GO TO ITALI !!!

AND LEARN THEIR LANGUAGE !!

P/S : dolce far niente :)

Tudung Assalamualaikum !

2011-09-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

I learn to live ... half alive ..

sorry .. currently listening to Jar of hearts by Christina Perri . love that song . i sang that song during my turn for Sing n Share . it was during english class . Boy , that was a fun experience .

tak paham maksud tudung assalamualaikum ? hahah :) at first , i also don't quite get the label . my mum's friends yang mulakan panggilan tudung assalamualaikum . Tudung assalamualaikum nie sama dengan tudung Indon [ that's what everyone has been calling it ] yang senang pakai masuk terus . Got to admit that this tudung really makes thing easier , oh well , for some people who like this type of tudung . as for me , you can say that i am still exploring my interest . my answer is neither yes or no . :)

cam nie maksud tudung assalamualaikum nie . selalunya kalau kat rumah , kita perempuan memang tak pakai tudung kan ? seronok menayangkan rambut yang lebat lagi hitam tue . tengah2 seronok melayan cerita melayu yang tengah main kat tv , tetiba ada suara memanggil ....

"assalamualaikum ! "

ZAAPPPPPPPP !

terus sambar tudung Indon tersebut and pasang terus .

" Waalaikumusalam !"

begitulah ceritanya . tudung ini memang meyenangkan kerja perempuan . sebab kalau ada orang datang ke rumah n ber sialam , terus ambik tudung nie and pakai terus ! sebab tuelah lekat nama TUDUNG ASSALAMUALAIKUM .

sakit perut saya ketawa bila mak cerita sal tudung nie . hahahaha :) calie calie ..

anyway , hari tue , masa bulan puasa , saya and my mum pegi jalan kat pasar malam dalam misi mencari juadah berbuka pada hari berkenaan . before nak balik ke parking space , kitorang lalu sebuah booth yang jual macam2 jenis tudung . mak kata dia nak belanja so i grab one tudung and gave it to the lady to pay . i told you , i am still exploring .

take 1

adjusting the awning . freaking annoying .

Take 2

take 3

shhhh ! don't tell anyone :)

P/s : kalau memberi biarlah ikhlas .. okay ??

Selamat hari Raya :)

2011-09-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum .. Ya Allah .. lama dah tak update blog . kadang2 bila dah lama x update blog , bila ada masa nak update , tak tahu pulak nak update apa . hahaha :) i guess it's normal . been there done that kan ? anyway .. kehidupan saya sekarang hanyalah tentang belajar untuk SPM dan more exams : / bilalah saya nie nak habiskan zaman persekolahan menengah saya nie . dah x sabar nak habiskan SPM !

anyway , this post was actually to update about the raya week ! selamat hari raya everyone ! although we are left only 9 person in the house [ my brother wasn't back for holiday .. coursework ] , we still managed to have a great time during raya . but to be honest , this year's raya was kinda boring and slow . Ayang went over to my place for a night over for 5 days . and it was FUN !!!! i really hoped we could do that again !

okaylah .. better let the photos do the explanation .

Abi and Hanna were in Raya Mood :)

Baju yang perlu diseterika

What a mess !

baju kedua :)

baju ketiga :)

i guess that's all .. more updates coming okay ???

p/s : huarrrrggghhhh !

Take a Chance

2011-08-19T16:37:00.002+08:00

Adele 21

2011-08-06T14:49:00.002+08:00

Silent mode -.-

2011-07-09T17:00:00.002+08:00

안녕하세요 !

how is everyone ?!! ( screaming my lungs out !)

hahaha :) waahhh , it has been a while since i updated this blog .. sorry doe .. i was busy with my studies . i am now fired up to study for my spm ! i want to be the one who managed to reach the peak , not the one who already giving up right before they even climb the mountain .

again , i am sorry for the late update . not only i was busy , i have no laptop facility at home because right now i don't have one yet . so it's kinda complicating things . hehehe :)

but i promise you guys , loads of updates AFTER SPM ! hehe :)

So , SPM is on 14 Nov 2011 . so u guys just have to wait for a little while okay ? come on , patience is a virtue . so , everyone , wish me luck and please pray for my success ? i could use a lot of that :)

안녕히계세요 !~

p/s : addmaths are killing me now !

I LOVE THIS LOVE SONG !~

2011-05-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

Oh i LOVE this love song :) Saranghamnida 사랑합니다 !

Nae Sarang 내 사랑 , Big Bang

2011-05-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

i wished there was an escape door .

2011-05-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

I know i can't take one more steps towards you , cause all that's waiting is regret .

i wished there was an escape door in my life .

a door that will come in handy when i need to run away from the world .

a door that will save me from the facts of life that depressing me .

a door that opens the path of freedom from these terrible suffocation .

a door that might show me the answers to all my why's .

i wished there was a freedom plane in my life .

a plane that will bring me across to a better place .

a plane that will keep me safe above all the mess .

a plane that will bring me to somewhere called dreamworld .

a plane that fly me high so that i don't have to be at the bottom anymore .

i wished there was an invisibility cloak in my life .

a cloak that will hide all my sorrows out of sight .

a cloak that will hide every drops of my tears .

a cloak that will hide me from all the miserable crowds .

a cloak that will keep me invisible from ignorance and despair .

sometimes i want to feel special in some ways . and chosen .
to be despise so much isn't what i was looking when i needed a friend . could you make me understand how did i hurt you so much that you don't even want to look back at me ? i thought i found someone that i know i can rely on when no one is out there but i guess i was imagining it before . because you don't act like that person that i've once knew .

worse , u cast me away from your life . u blow me away like a pile of dust . wow . and yet you still call yourself a friend to others . ridiculous . u won't even get anywhere near me because i am just to disgusting in your eyes . poor me , i thought u are the smile i need , you turned out to be the tears i didn't expected .

p/s : you are unbelievable .

our crown :)

2011-05-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

will post about this . promise :) but right now , sleep !

Sing a sweet Lullaby

2011-05-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

guess what ??!

come on , guess !

I AMMMMM ...... erggghh .. nothing actually .

sadly , nothing much happened in my current life . well , my mood swing is still swinging and for this week only , i already felt all kinds of emotion .

TERROR .
CONFUSED .
SURPRISED .
EXCITED .
DOWN .

and more unexplainable feelings .

but for a start , let me express my apologies for not updating this blog . i got a lot in my plate and i don't have time for my blogging activity . not to mention that SPM is only a few months to go ! aren't you freaking out now ?? i am freaking out now ! seriously , i need that straight A's ! no matter what !

oh ya !

i have read the HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS book ! call me nerd (whatever) , harry potter is so AWESOME ! and i just can't believe the ending which you guys just have to find it yourself bacause the part 2 of HARRY POTTER ATDH will be released on 17 July . hehehe ! can't wait ! during my reading , i experienced nervousness , panic , terror and sad . the story was written so well that i actually felt like i was watching the whole story in front of my very eyes !

SALUTE TO J.K ROWLING !

oh ya ! i am already 17 on the 14th April ! yeay ! it was a very lovely birthday . at least i will always know that there are people out there who stills remember me :)

Mother's day is coming soon so we don't want to miss it , aren't we ? express all your love and appreciation to your mum this Sunday . Yesterday , i cried to a Celine Dion song , A mother's prayer . it was a very beautiful song . it reminds me about how a mother is a very important person in everyone's life , in MY LIFE . so , please , appreciate and celebrate her on her day . because she deserves a day inspired for her . anyway , i found this really cute video about mother's day !

enjoy :) ~

p/s : Happy Mother's Day , mum . I love You :)

School life :/

2011-04-07T12:11:00.000+08:00

hi everyone :)

another day , a brand new start for each one of us . to all my readers [ if i still have readers now anyway ] , i wish u guys will have a great start today and please , do me a favor , smile as wide as possible !

just like this guy ...

my exams ? a failure . i already got G in my report card and all the students in the entire world knows that it is not something good and to be proud of . i am totally screwed up my exam this time . frustrated ! it's my fault for not being attentive enough during my exam . mum , sorry mum . i am a total mess up . i didn't do my very best . and now i just don't care if u want to scold me or torture me in every way possible because it is me to blame .

honestly ,

now i am feeling a lot more pressurized than before . before this , i was like " okay la ..relax lerr .. spm is still a long way to go . i can still finish my revision " . but now , i am like " I AM ON A FRYING PAN ! i have to make myself study or else i will regret it for the rest of MY LIFE ! " i am so in the zone where i can't let anyone disappointed and i am at the center of their attention . the urge to get straight A's is getting stronger each day . it is something that i can't avoid no matter how far i run or every corner that i try to hide .

i just feel like shooting my head now .

and now ..

got to unpack all the books from last year and a handful of determination to stay at my study desk and study till spm is finally over.

p.s : bio class !

huuurrggghh

2011-03-30T10:09:00.003+08:00

this opportunity !

i must take it . hahaha :) hi bloggers .. i am here once again for another quick update .. hehehehe :) anyway , schoool has becoming really tiring and i seriously have to cope up with my studies . with the orientation week going on , i don't think i ma in the mood of studying this week . i went home , the next thing i know , i'm on bed with my school attire on . Goshh ! i am so tired . i have never been so tired like this .

talking about homework ... huh .. my homework for this week seems like mountain high ! and i haven't add up the homework for this weekend . it will be TONES of it ! arrrrgghh ! i really need a break . and talking about holiday , this JUNE holiday , i will be off for a family trip ! yeay ! and the turn off is that after the break , i , AMAL , will be sitting for my Mock 1 examination ! aarrgghh ! it was supposed to be relieving holiday then turns out to be preparing week ~

gtg . something came up . da ~

click on the image ..

p/s : a something for a laugh :)

happppppppyyyyy bbbbdayyyy !

2011-03-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST FRIEND !

MAEY KIYEN !

her birthday was yesterday and she's now officially 17th babeeeeyyyhhhh ! yeahhhh ! so happy for her ..

and to maey , here's for you :)

LOVE YOU !

P.S : she's old already .. hahaha :) kiddin :)